they're telling me that i shouldn't expect a letter, after all.

i made a request for one anyways over the phone.

should i buy a ticket anyways? i'm so iffy about this. are the prices inflated due to the blockade? should i wait this out, anyways?

let me get some fruit and look it up.

i napped this morning and afternoon and didn't get as much done as i wanted. i'm at least rested and awake, so i'm either up and in or up and ready to get out.

and, no, that doesn't mean i want to breathe in your second-hand marijuana at home, either.

no smoking in the fucking house.

it's a simple rule. please respect it.

City Councilman James Tate's office says Detroit's extension will allow "additional opportunity to continue to develop a social equity program that ensures all eligible Detroiters have an opportunity" to participate in Michigan's new marijuana industry.

so, they're setting up some kind of affirmative action program or something, out of an apparent fear that white people are going to control the supply. in the mean time, the functional effect of the policy is to continue to arrest black people for selling it illegally, and to drive away people that want to come in to the city.

it's typical detroit...the place is just so badly run it's baffling.....

i haven't decided yet.

but, i'm leaning on staying in because:

1) i don't want to buy smokes, and i'll have to. it will be easier when i can buy a pre-roll, instead, and avoid that.
2) the door price isn't particularly bad, but it's an expensive night when you add it up. this bar has had some accusations of shady hiring practices, and stopped selling cheap beer a while back, when new management took over and, oddly, shifted to a more urban theme.
3) it's looking like it's going to be legit gross out.

if you flip this around on me so that i need to get out of the house to avoid the smoke, then i'm going to end up reading at the library, or something.

please just respect my wishes as they've been articulated. stop trying to make guesses, or think you can outsmart me by appealing to some useless psychobabble.

your psychoanalysis is pseudoscientific bullshit and not even worth deconstructing, and you're a fucking idiot for being dumb enough to take it seriously as an epistemology in the first place.

i will tell you what i want, and i will be very clear about it. please just fucking listen....

these people just can't understand that smoking is not binary.

they seem convinced that you smoke or you don't, and my lifestyle choice to smoke when i'm drinking (two or three times a month, max) means i'm condemned to breathe in second-hand smoke when i'm not.

it's what happens when you reduce complicated issues to simplistic moral questions.

no, the fact that i smoke when i'm at the bar doesn't mean i should have to breathe in second-hand smoke when i'm at home, when i've explicitly made it clear that i don't want to. in fact, the incentives are working in the other direction - i'm feeling less inclined to go drinking because i'd rather avoid the inevitable pack.

you fucking dipshits.

it's also looking like it's going to be rainy and miserable out, tonight.

and, the fact that i basically have to buy smokes is such a disincentive.

so, i'm broadly leaning towards staying in. unless i need to get out of the house to get away from the cop smoking upstairs. ugh.

go.

smoke.

away.

from.

the.

house.

fuck....

on second thought, i'm ok on the quick reinstall.

listen...

i don't know who you are or what you want. i know you're reading this. i don't know know why. i suspect i've been drugged in public recently, as well.

all i want to do is log on to this machine to fix the typos from the last week of posts. i essentially will be doing nothing at all until this project is completed.

i appear to be powerless to stop you. that does not make me feel subservient to you, but rather makes me hate you, and makes me want to defy you even more. there is no logic in oppression - oppressed people never love their controllers, and i will never love you, i will merely hate you more and more and more and more.

so, you can sit there and knock me offline, apparently at will, if you want.

but, i'm just going to reinstall over and over and over and over again until i get done what i'm doing.

yeah, that lasted seconds before it shut off. they seem to have gone after my boot sector, again, meaning i'm going to need to do a full reinstall, this time.

i will need to get the chip out at the hardware level to really get this out and i don't know how to do that.

but, i need to clean this blog up from that machine, so we're going to do this over and over again until i'm done, which might get very frustrating, but is necessary. 

this chromebook is simply not intended for local use and never will be used for that reason.

there's another show on wednesday that i'd like to sneak in, too.

yeah, it's kind of bone-headed, but this is the kind of grunge i actually like.

https://gileadmedia.bandcamp.com/album/negative-sound

https://bummerkc.bandcamp.com/album/holy-terror

so, i just activated a machine with a disabled network card, no "network connections" service (or other services) running, no installed network adapters....

?

either this is operating at like a bios level, or i've tricked myself into thinking it's connecting, when it's actually rebuilding something locally.

it sort of doesn't matter just right now, but it's very weird. it's telling me that it's connecting remotely - either it's lying, or the connection is essentially impossible for me to get at, with the the broken backlit screen, and my subsequent inability to get into the bios. maybe that's why that happened...?

also, the weird remote access drivers have mysteriously disappeared.

i'm left with no greater faith in the sanctity of the situation, but i have to carry on, for now.

let's hope i can get this cleaned up in a few hours.

i'm going to call the court office in the morning.

i have a pre-paid mastercard that i bought for the bus ticket to toronto in june, but i haven't received a confirmation on it in the mail, yet. i don't want to buy the ticket until i'm sure.

if i can get a clear confirmation over the phone, or something sent over email, i'll feel better about budgeting for this.

this worth $80?

you tell me.

death.to.koalas@gmail.com.

do i want to give man or astroman $23 usd for a 40 minute set?

there's quite a few punk bands in this category - they have enough records to play a full show, but you just don't expect them to. you expect them to play the same set they played as an opening band on their first tour, twenty years ago.

but, the listing says doors at 8:00 and close at 11:00, and there's two opening bands.

one: 8:30-9:00

two: 9:15-9:45

man or astroman: 10:15-11:00

that's just a guess, but it's likely.

so, rip.....or astro-rip?

i may be used to paying $5-10 for a show, granted. but, i don't mind paying $20+ for an older act with a back catalog, if they play a substantive set, dammit.

the night is going to cost me:

$23 tickets
$20 beer (because they only sell them in tall cans for $8 each)
$7 cigarettes (unavoidable, at the bar)
$3 pre
that's $53 usd -----> $70 cdn
+ $10 tickets

for a 30-40 minute set. hrmmn.

let me see if i can find a recent setlist.

it seems like the coronavirus is reducing air travel, which means less emissions. score.

but, what's going on seems to be rather absurd; they're quarantining people for weeks over the flu.

it makes you wonder what's really going on.